The day God taught me about prayer and repentance.

Backstory: I was mingling in energy healing. I have gone to a chiropractor and I have done sessions in energy work.

For the past several years I have had this constant inner voice nagging me and bringing me down. I had a constant conversation in my head about everything that I do wrong. Everything that I say wrong. All my faults, my shortcomings. It was painful. I didn't know how to get rid of it. I would try to do things to feel happy and to have joy, but nothing worked I was always sad. I didn't understand how people could feel happy. There was so much commotion. My inner voice was mean and harsh and negative. 

I was talking with Lexi and we were talking about the dangers of energy healing and how people think they are getting rid of baggage and they are clearing out trauma. The problem is, you open up your soul to deceivers.  False spirits of light. You think you are getting rid of evil spirits but more come back that act like spirits of light but turn out to be worse than what you thought you got rid of. It is a very dark place.

We then talked about repentance. I didn't even think I had something to repent of. I didn't think I was doing anything necessarily wrong. 

I was wrong. 

I was trusting in the arm of flesh. I was not using the priesthood properly. I was looking to others for answers and for healing. 

I decided to pray.  I decided to repent. I decided to ask for forgiveness. In an instant. I was forgiven. In an instant that evil spirit left me and in an instant the negative voice in my head was gone. I haven't heard the nagging words since. It has been such a relief!!  I can't believe that all I had to do was ask for forgiveness and it was taken. I can't believe I brought all of this on myself.  But boy am I glad that it is over.

If things are not going the way you think they should. If you are having a nagging voice. Pray. Repent. 

We have a lot of things that we need to be repenting about that we are blaming other people for when in reality it is our own problem. Jesus is the answer. Jesus is the healer. He is always there, waiting for us to come to him and repent. He already paid the price for everything we are going through. He knows how to succor us. We just need to turn to Him and let Him.