So, I was doing some research on the computer today, and I accidentally typed ".com" instead of ".org" on the name I was looking up. I was shocked and sickened by the images that popped up on my screen. I SCREAMED and tried to get out of that website. It was awful. My children were wondering what I was doing. I just told them not to look.
It was so sad, and so sick and it hurt me so much. It hurt me physically, it hurt me spiritually. I went to clean the kitchen and I couldn't do it. I was just sad, and hurt. I couldn't go back to the computer for about an hour.
I went into my room and I knelt down by my bed and I prayed to my Heavenly Father. I prayed and asked Him to take the images out of my mind and to heal my soul. I was crying, it wasn't just a tear or two, it was deep, heaving, deep down in my soul. After a few minutes of being on my knees and pleading for help, I felt better. I started to feel calm again, and my crying began to stop.
I am so grateful for the Savior. I am grateful for the Atonement. The things that happened in History, that we are celebrating this week, that made my repentance possible. That healed my soul. That healed my spirit.
I can now say that I know there are things on the internet that are harmful to us. I know why we are warned about them and I KNOW they do damage to us. I have experienced it.
But the good news is, there is always hope! There is always a way to repent, and a way to return.
6 days ago