We had quite a scare last night. I am glad it was JUST a scare.
I laid Andrew down by Nicolas at 10:00. I felt like I shouldn't have laid him where I did. But I ignored it.
Then Chris and I left to go get Samantha from a party. While we were driving, I thought about Andrew. It was a very strong impression, so I called the house, no one answered. I thought, "he will be ok." But then I hear, "CALL LEXI!" I thought that was strange, but I did it. I asked her to check on him.
Lexi got off the phone and was thinking, "My mom is being paranoid again." (which by the way, is a common accurance) She continued with her homework, but she felt VERY strongly that she needed to check on him. She went into the room. It was dark, he wasn't crying she thought, "he's fine." She couldn't get the light on. She was about to leave and she hear a suffocating sound. Nico had rolled over in his sleep, on top of Andrew with all of his blankets. Our bed is really soft and Andrew couldn't move.
She felt for him and only found his feet. She got Nico off of him and Andrew was still gasping. Gasping for air. She said he did it for what felt like a minute.
We walked in and Lexi was holding Andrew, I was thinking, "oh, he did wake up." But then I looked at Lexi and she was sobbing. I asked her what was going on. She relayed the story and I started crying too. Ugh!! I just wanted to hold him. Lexi wasn't done comforting him yet though. (which I thought was cute.)
Anyway...
It was extremely scary. I am glad that we listened to the promtings (in the end) and that Andrew is o.k.!! Now I just have to let go of the haunting "what ifs."
4 months ago